Everyone got a bad side of them. It’s either not willingly you are showing them or you are really doing it. The reason for me writing what I’m about says is because it’s what I have discovered on the journey to Port Dickson. I think, I said THINK, there’s this particular person that is bad towards me but somehow not showing them. I’m not going to say because it’s just a small stuff.
Instead of talking about people, I want to say about myself. I have a lot of bad points and I do know most of them and some I might not notice it yet. The first one I got to say is that I’m pretty much a selfish guy sometimes. Like during the journey to Port Dickson, I only care for my own comfort inside the 14 seater bus. Yes, the place I was sitting was squeezes because I was sitting with Zaki on this “smaller-a-bit-chair-for-two-people”. Zaki is quite a buff up guy and I’m just medium and that seat really not meant for us and more meant for two girls. However, on the way home, I was totally irrites with the squeezes that I changed position with the other guys at the back. But because of my action, Ayie and Zaki need to changed position as well. My intention was just too changed with one guy but 3 guys move infront while me, Ayie and Zaki moved to the back. (I do hope you all understand my English and can imagine how the situation like is.)
The next bad thing about me is that sometimes I’m just straight-forward. Being straight forward sometimes means to say something that isn’t to someone liking. A very good example would be when someone is late, not like 5 to 10 minutes late but more than that. Like… I’m already at the meeting place and the person is just about to leave their house. Seriously and honestly, I hate entertaining this things and I wouldn’t bother to meet them at all. Azeela coined the name “Beast” for me because how I would become one when someone is late. I don’t mind waiting for a very long queue but I do mind if you are not on time and the best part is that you still at home while I’m already at the place. I said all these, but I got to admit, I’m sometimes late but heck, not all the times. And one more thing about being straight-forward, I had to said something out clear and hard so that people can understand that what they kept saying are bothering me too much.
There you go, some of my bad points. If I do have some others, do tell me. Will try to see what I can do to make myself better. Thanks!
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I’m not sure what certain dreams are telling me. It can be good; it can be bad and sometimes, both. Good or bad, it’s just a show that I’m watching. Truth or fake, it’s currently just a dream.
Judging by the statement above, it’s obvious I’m going talk about a dream.
Well, it’s about a girl, Shakina friend from ICA. Not sure who she is, how she probably really looks like (just a rough guess), what her character is like but still I dreamt about her. In the dream, she’s a rich man child (an only child if I’m not wrong), lots of friend (I think) and she’s totally like being care about by her parents. They don’t want/like anything to happen to her which includes her being with a guy and that means no boyfriend for her in that dream.
For me, I’m just watching myself act in that dream. I was a shy boy as usual, same like in real life. I was interested in her, watching her from far and not talking with her, or maybe there was, just a bit.
For sure, this dream is fake and somehow good with a mix of bad. Oh well, it’s just a dream.
Anyway, my arms are hurting right now! Just did like 30 diamond push-ups and 80 sit-ups. I think it’s time I get some abs and triceps before National Service so I’m not a weak man inside. Ever since I’m done with shooting of Eclipse, I’ve stop training myself and fats are coming back to me.
And I’m almost quitting work soon and that means there’s more time to finish up portfolio, be it video, be it photography or be it music. Yesh!
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I want to jam because it's been a long time! But I don't think I have time for that, all because of W.O.R.K. Oh well, anyway, I've been thinking of starting a project. And the only person I can and want to work with right now is Allen Cat. Reason is that he played the piano and thus he is majorly needed for this to work. Before I continue, it's going to be electronica genre! And that means synthesizer is going TO BE inside, which is the reason Allen is so important and no, I'm not using him. It's because how great musician he is and stuff and we need each other badly. He's coming this Monday to the “Studio” and we'll see what might happen. Most probably I'm just teaching him recording stuff because that is his reason to be here that day.
Enough said here's my idea on how the project's going to be like:
1. SYNTHESIZER, SYNTHESIZER, SYNTHESIZER! It's going to be the one that is leading the whole song. It's going to make up 1/3 of a song. It's a pretty cool instrument. It's probably and mostly repeated over and over again in the background.
2. HERE'S THE LAYOUT. Synthesizer, drum, bass, vocal, guitar. The first three mentioned instruments is the one that you can hear clearly in a song and for the guitar, it's going to be omit as much as possible. The only job guitar could does is 1 to 10 seconds of a riff and all it does is play as a rhythm. And no, you won't get any solo coming out from it because it's being unwanted and unlike. Fcuk guitar solo!
3. MAKE THE TIMING AS CONFUSE AS POSSIBLE. Anyone remember how we all started out playing the drum? How we play the hit-hat exactly the same thing/beat as the bass drum? That is how the drumming is going to be at certain times. If the bass drum hit 3 times, the hit-hat MUST be hit 3 times as well. And if the bass drum hit 5 times, the hit-hat MUST be hit 5 times as well. But, mostly the hit-hat would probably just do its usual routine to keep the time signature constant.
4. SCREAM! The vocal is going to be clean but once a while, a scream would be interesting. Just to add a bit of spice.
5. THIS IS CALLED, “ONLY IF…” We are pretty good and somehow being offered by any label, it's going to be rejected. Don't be interested in these labels because we are doing a DIY-thingy here. We would record when we want, what we want, where to sell it, etc.
6. IT ENDS AT 5 BECAUSE THERE'S NOTHING ELSE LEFT.
So all the above is some of the ideas I had. If you all can't understand them, it's okay. The first reason for all these ideas is because of Idiot Pilot. I like the stuff they are playing and doing and I would like to try it out as well. Next, it's amazing how punk or post-punk is giving me all these ideas. I swear the book I'm reading now, “Rip It Up and Start Again: Postpunk 1978-1984”, is influencing me a lot! Epic time post-punk had there during that time. It's all about not following how rock should be but making things different. To understand the ideas above, please go to YouTube and find about Idiot Pilot and maybe Post-Punk Junk. Mostly, Idiot Pilot is how I want to sound.
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Am I a good Muslim? Some of the possible answers are no or maybe, perhaps, possible, etc but no, there is no answer of “Yes” to that question. I admit that I'm not one who follows exactly the way it should be follow.
For two main reasons, I would like to get a lips piercing and getting me embed with a tattoo. I do know that it's totally “Haram” or forbidden in Islam but still, my thought tell me that it's okay. And for the past week about the drinking beer, I still don't know about that. I guess my teaching is a bit sideways already.
You see, my thinking is fcuk-up badly but I do know inside my heart, I love Islam and there is no reason I won't stop doing the 5 Pillars of Islam. IF I do get my piercing or tattoo, I would still do my prayers, I would still do fasting and insyaallah, if God permits it, I would like to visit Mecca and do Hajj. What would others think when I went to pray at the mosque? I would just ignore them because I come to pray and not to be look down by others.
My dad always say this, in Malay context actually, “God give you brain, so you better jolly well use it wisely and usefully.” And thus, I have used my brain. I've think about these things a lot of times. Yes getting a piercing is how to make me become/look like girl and how both piercing and tattooing is damaging my body, but that is appearance, the outside. When we pray, it's actually the heart that is more important and how pure it must be which the inside is.
I should end my thinking and question right now. No matter how hard I tried to fight this case, the answer is still the same, no, I can't do piercing or tattoo because how I will listen to my parents. Gah!
Oh yeah, I do like to talk anything about religion, especially Islam and I could go on hours with it. Seriously, it's the best things to talk about than any other things you could talk about. And last of all, I'm not sampuk or possessed by any Placebo demon.
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I'm currently at work using this laptop to do school works. But guess what?! Mandy and Seri was here a minutes ago. Talked about making plan to Genting during the April season. Hmm...
And dang, should have taken pictures with Mandy!
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I feel so bastard for us saying the thing below. Come on, they are good! Haha! I want to use it as a message ringtone.
Pardon me for not updating my blog for one week already. I’ve been busy with my hectic life like Understanding Test, Final Year Project and sorting out thinking.
Anyway, while working yesterday, I have done a lot of serious thinking. Finally, I ended up with I’m going to go Green, Vegan and now, English.
First, whenever I’m going out, I’m going to bring my own recycled bag. So instead of using the plastic, I would use my bag. A single plastic bag might not be used by me, but I guess it can contribute a much difference.
Next, I’m going vegan not a strict one though! I’ll probably go stick with my old schedule, no meat or fish on Tuesday and Thursday, just vegetable and those non-meat/fish product.
Last, I’m going English. This is lame but I’m going to try it. I will use proper English whenever I am chatting and talking. And when I am chatting, I’m going to put the full stop.
Before I end, I'm going to act like real here. Not forgetting, if there's a vegan products, in term of clothing, I'm going to buy them. My next shoe should probably be Macbeth Vegan. And I'm going to support recycled product, something like iPod? I heard they are recycled product?
aren't you full enough with what i gave you yesterday, the whole fcuking day! i thought you're going to be fine for today, but no, you come at that time. why can't you just come after everything was over like what you just did again few minutes ago, make me suffer!!!
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FINALLY! After 3 days of updating all my loads of songs, it's finally done! Just need to get the correct information, have an album image, no tracks number for every title, etc. IT IS A HARD WORK! A super tiring work.
Now, all that is left is check everything is fine before backing up to new harddisk!
I've only used 150GB of harddisk space from my new harddisk just for videos and I am all paranoid already. Paranoid that 640GB isn't enough for my stuff, which obviously is enough not including my other 160GB and other 160GB of harddisk. Just try to understand what I am saying. PARANOID AZELY SIA! I swear my hand is all cramped up after holding onto this small mouse for too long.
TIME TO BACKUP SOON!
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I was a bit pissed off at work, for a while only. Haha!
So, if you're an actor, does that give you the right to like, look down on people? I don't know, but I somehow think so.
Helped open the door and you give me the smile. But the smile was like insincere and like want-don't-want kind. Rather you don't give me that smile and just walked off and do your "i'm-high-class-so-i-shouldn't-bother-with-low-class-people".
And seriously, this is what I think. Actors are the biggest fakers in the world. Musician for the win! We don't do things because we are supposed to act that way, we act who were are because we are being ourselves.
Work was super-zoom-fast! Today didn't fall asleep at work, only a bit but mostly I'm doing work. I did subtitling for Fajar Ramadan episode 4, but this time, segment 1 of the show only. My super-powerful-shifu, Iqbalizm, do the rest of the 30 minutes. Respect!
So, today is last day of working with Siaw Ling. I am so going to miss working with her, my real SUPERVISOR. It was kind of sad of course. From how I started out thinking she’s a bad person to a great person, from when I start working in 2007 until now, 2009. She got the same thinking as the staff and that’s why we all can click so well with her.
Me and her managed to level the ice-cream together, Master and Junior, for the last time. She’s the one who teaches me on how to level the ice-cream and so can say that we have similar kind of levelling the ice-cream and how it would look like in the end. She was pretty sad of course at the end of the day, was all quiet and her face shows the sad face. No pictures taken today because of some really bad issues. Haha! Should not disclose it here!
And last and not least, a line I will forever remember Siaw Ling told me, “If the old one never go, how can the new one come.”
The so-called acting title we had in mind was, “Republic Polytechnic, breeding ground for gays.” The storyline is that I broke up with Izzah and then told her that I found a new boyfriend which is Ruiqi. Then, she comes over to slap me at my face, or head. Hahahaha! I’ll see if I can grab the video by tomorrow.
And about work, there are tons of things to talk about. Firstly, today is the day Ayu went back to Bali, Indonesia. I didn’t get to send her back because busy with school project. Last working day with her was last Thursday and we managed to get a photo taken.
Next, my old “SUPERVISOR” is coming back to Suntec! This is bad news not good news at all. Now that she will be back, Chia Eik, Emily and Zaphs decided to quit. Me and Zaphs already cooking up ideas to find job together and she suggested a cafeteria near Shaw House. Once we all quit, Suntec Andersen will be back to shit situation with the “SUPERVISOR” teaching them nonsense stuff. Or, maybe I should just stay, influence them old style Suntec Andersen and make the “SUPERVISOR” blood boils.
Last, Zaphs already got a boyfriend, so she won’t go on a date with me! This is unrelated but still... And tomorrow I want go out after school, so who wants? Message me please.
2. Answer them with the answer: first answer is kagami and second answer is captain
3. Thanks-thanks!
4. Azeela, don't give me that rolling eyes!
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BESTIE WOKE ME UP AT 2.14 IN THE MORNING, just to tell me her height! Haha! Still, I’m appreciative of her for wanting to tell me. THANKS BESTIE!
Normally, when I woke up half-way through the night, I would always blog, not sure why. But today, exception, as I didn’t pray for Ishak, I decided to do so like 948 seconds ago. I’m not sure whether my pray is valid or not. Hahahaha!
Just going to post some new pictures taken using Nikon D70.
And yesterday, got this strange guy Berny, or whatever his name is, called me and asked me to go for job interview. It’s for some technology got to do with H1N1 and here’s the good news, THEY WANT ME TO BECOME A TEAM LEADER! I don’t know which dude/girl gave my phone number and said I was a good team leader. I swear if I become the team leader, the job will turn upside down and the work will be so f-up. But, I will still go for the interview, even thought I might get my ass rape by few guys (Probably what Mr Ivan will say to me). HAHAHAHAHAHA!
For some sidetrack, sometimes, being friend is better than taking anything further. For once, I thank my “Oh-So-Fcuk-Up-Brain” for asking me to just stay friends with certain people, mostly girls. You know, these people are so rad and awesome that you don’t want it to be like, “oh, we are together” and then after few months, “oh, she/he is so shit”. It’s like I rather hang out together and do all those shit stuff rather than not being friends afterwards. That’s what I finally manage to grab hold off and understand.
AND I'M NO LONGER TIRED ANYMORE!
Hmm… I just learned on adding pictures, maybe I should try that someday.
So, thanks Twitter for being a rad application!
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Let me make this prediction, the next Silverstein, Shipwreck in the Sand, music video would be I Am the Arsonist.
Asked dad about the inspection and everything turned out fine. He asks me this, “Don’t you want to change the bike? It’s kind of bad already.” Those who knew me would know what I want to say. Yeah, a scrambler would be good. But, I’m okay with my current Wave bike.
My question right now, should I take 2A? I will probably take 2A but my bike stays 2B. Honda XR125, please! We’ll see how.
